10 avril 2008

Insomnia in the midst of spring...

As a single footstep will not make a path on the earth, so a single thought will not make a pathway in the mind. To make a deep physical path, we walk again and again. To make a deep mental path, we must think over and over the kind of thoughts we wish to dominate our lives.
Henry David Thoreau

I have satiated myself on dozens websites today. Nothing to do at work except tranlating the official website of the company from Dutch to English, the office is empty of sound, a sleepless space where strive a gentle hum of keyboard notes, taptitaptitaptitapti.... I am in the process of defining what the 3 main composant of this mental path should be. The first is obvious, sailing, yachts, tying knots, welding, repairing steel, grinding, knowing where the wind comes from, studying for my RYA exam. The second involves cameras, programming, script writing, filming, editing, music and the media. For the rest I oscillate bravely between utter abandonment to entertainment's joyful depravity or raising my awareness level to it's highest potential. When sitting under the roof of this 13th century farmhouse, awareness wins but as soon as the darkness of my own house surrounders my deprived soul, I fall for the entertainment. I have won one battle though. I have been  for the past 5 weeks on a no wheat, potato, corn, sugar, dairy or white processed food diet. I can say I feel a lot healthier then before. I can also say refusing birthday cakes and explaining to people why has been the hardest part on my part and I get comments on you're soooo skinny why would you be on a diet anyway. My aim is to keep at it for another 3 months and swap it for a partial raw diet. 80% raw, 20% cooked, kinda like the japanese diet. I have orderd 3 cookbooks : Grain-Free Gourmet: Delicious Recipes for Healthy Living, Rainbow Green Live-Food Cuisine, Living Cuisine: The Art and Spirit of Raw Foods and I can't wait as most of my old favorite recipes include wheat, sugar,butter or cream.  I have failed at going to the gym or exercising 2 to 3 times a week. Changing towards an Athlete mindset is what I am thriving for ATM and it applies to all goals I will set for myself. I must make sure what those goals are truly what  I must focus on first. Simple enough...guess I am back making lists, should kill the last 15 minutes before I head home:)

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