"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."
I have had a very comfortable screw with fear over the past years, one that has lead me to be utterly jittery and out of control in testing environments..one that has blocked many ideas into getting done. The fear of failure and being judged by others.. the fear of getting what I REALLY wanted in life.
I have two exams in june-july. One to pursue my sailing career and the other for work and I can see the old pattern breaking through the veil once more.
How do you counteract your fears? walk through that door and do it...shit your pants , breathe and what will be will be. Give it your best I guess then you can only move forward, spiral up.
Another 2 weeks of ulcers and a nagging feeling of worthlessness on my side and it will be over until the next jump.