30 mai 2008
Exams or the eternal fear
"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."
--- Frank Herbert, Dune - Bene Gesserit Litany Against Fear
Fear...
I have had a very comfortable screw with fear over the past years, one that has lead me to be utterly jittery and out of control in testing environments..one that has blocked many ideas into getting done. The fear of failure and being judged by others.. the fear of getting what I REALLY wanted in life.
I have two exams in june-july. One to pursue my sailing career and the other for work and I can see the old pattern breaking through the veil once more.
How do you counteract your fears? walk through that door and do it...shit your pants , breathe and what will be will be. Give it your best I guess then you can only move forward, spiral up.
Another 2 weeks of ulcers and a nagging feeling of worthlessness on my side and it will be over until the next jump.
13 mai 2008
.....on the wave of summer...
Days linger into a go to work, get home, try to find something insightful to do on the boat, get home, cook, watch something on TV or read and go to bed. A gentle routine that will most likely take over our lives for the next 3 months. I desperately try in the occasional trip down to my gym and a rollerblade ride by the riverside.
Unbeleivable how simple actions can fill the day so fast.
Had also a laugh today with this
01 mai 2008
Time & Friendship
“If the day and night are such that you greet them with joy, and life emits a fragrance like flowers and sweet smelling herbs – that is your success. All nature is your congratulations”
– Henry David Thoreau -
Danemark in the spring 2008
I have been trying to define the term friendship and it became more complicated then expected. Espen came up with someone you enjoy spending time with, I find it a little restrictive and according to Aristotle and myself it is impossible to apply one definition. Complexity is the matter of friendship, not one of them is the same, special rules apply and circumstances. Then time, time is money nowadays, time is also an invention, time is what we lack, time is something I have issues splitting into useful slots, it shifts and disappears . So to have great relationships you should spend the time working on them, but then why not use that time for yourself instead.....Just been a little thoughtful lately, mirroring the weather and the battle within myself to change within...
And for those of you in the mood this week-end simply try this test on friendship to assess your ideas about friendship and compares them with those of the great philosophers of friendship.
